TUFF TIME...

So far so gud ,,, i have a life tat i alys wanted.. but there r certain thins which i cant stand up to...recently i had to resign from ma job coz i never find ny interest in wat eva i do for a long run n most of all the job i was doin is a drudgery one for me ...i still wonder how ma collegues find happiness in it,ha!!! the gift within us really differs,,, i m not born to do this.......i m not complanin... but i m sharin wat i have learned for this 1 whole year...
i do get sappy at the view of strugglin people aroun me ,,, but i cant mitigate their problems nor can i give nythin ,, all i could do is jus watch them get obsessed and gradually brin about a difference in ma life.......wow selfish me ,,, but i guess tats wat life is all about .....
The worst thing about maself is tat i cant understan the feelings and emotions about others ,,, recently i had an affair wit a gal...thou i had a galfren whom i like so much ,,, n m able to do nythin for her....i thought ma relation wit tat gal would b innucuous but later came to kno tat this would brin so much trouble to her n tat was rly an absurd behavior of me ... the inhuman thin perhaps hea is tat i was not able to understan her feelins,,, n how she would feel if she comes to kno the fact.... but the gud thang i did is wit scrupulous heart i told her the fact ,,, n the vry moment did she hear this,she jus rejected me as a fren n told me tat i m an invisible man to her ,,,, hahaha so i wonder here if i m not her fren ,, then am i her enemy... hahaha life man ,, life,,, got to think in boarder sense,,,,ny how tat was a lesson to me ,,,, u learn from mistakes .. how true of this,,,,,